no more tears

I had a good day yesterday. Jennie came to get me around noon and we with McKay and Alexa to see the Nightmare Before Christmas in 3-D. It's really fun to see on the big screen again and the girls enjoyed it. Afterward was Family Fun Day at Reata Rehabilitation. Grace does horse therapy at Reata once a week which helps her balance and muscle control. She's pretty adorable up on that horse. Once a year they have family fun day where they have games for the kids, a cake walk, food and other fun things. Grace was part of a little program which was very cute. There was a boy there, his name was Byron, who rode before Grace. His smile alone made me feel so much appreciation for all of God's children. He was probably my age, if not older, but has Cerebral Palsy and had caused severe problems with his motor skills. His parents were there and he hadn't seen them a while. He was so excited he nearly jumped right off the horse to get to them. I think about how some kids my age treat their parents and don't appreciate them at all, but Byron has endless love for his and will never feel anything else. He is so happy and that is really all that matters.

Today, well, I've been very emotional today! Sometimes for good reasons, other times for reasons that I wish weren't happening.

I woke up today at 9, mildly freaking out because we were supposed to leave for church at 10. I then realized we hadn't turned our clocks back an hour yet, so I laid there for a few more minutes before I finally got out of bed. We had a short meeting with Michelle Reed about the Christmas Party the three of us are planning for the ward. She has some excellent ideas, it should be a very fun night, so all of you in Trophy Club Ward be ready to be dazzled ;)

It was fast and testimony meeting and although I had a mild feeling to go up and bear mine, I decided that if I did no one would understand me due to my crying. I have so much to be grateful for right now, Forest and I are in a really good place in our relationship, with our jobs, with our lives. Courtney is doing fantastic, or as fantastic as she's going to be with her second round of chemo (she's still in remission, this is to just make sure she stays that way). The outpouring of blessings on her family have been abundant. I know their faith in Heavenly Father to watch over them is probably a huge reason they are doing so well emotionally with this burden and I know that they can handle it with his help. So many of us who have the gospel take it for granted, not truly knowing the miracles that can happen with faith.

I'm so glad Courtney is doing well and that this horrible thing is finally on it's way out. My happiness is mixed with sadness though, as my Uncle Richard is quickly losing his own battle with cancer. Words really can't express how I'm feeling right now. All I want to say is that it's not fair. I know that if I didn't have the faith I have now, I would not at all be able to handle this at all.